Me: if not, you come over in the evenings?
Friend: it's V. day!!! u guys should spend some time alone
Me: oh ya!
Me: no need lah. unless you have a date. =P
Me: we every day so loving already mah.
Friend: haha... no date... but chatting w a guy online
Friend: can b more loving on v. day
Me: we are not romatic most of the time. i think some ocassional small acts do occur,, but most of the time they are unplanned.
Friend: do u think i should find someone who has a successful career or rich or at least ambitious??
Friend: if it's a low-level civil servant w laid back attitude...
Me: i cant tell you that
Me: i personally didnt look for riches
Me: ambition for me is important though, but i didnt find it in brendan
Me: how about just someone who loves you
Me: and you love
Friend: yah... u guys were young n the attraction was so strong that u can't think straight
Me: i think that is for me,,,, important
Me: in terms of practicality, riches is important....... but riches is fickle too.
Me: what will you do with someone who may seek for younger girls when we hit like 60.
Me: so,, to me,,, the love is important.
Me: it is hard to find a right guy,, i dont think he exists. we just have to make it work or at least make it worth working.
Friend: yah... i'm listening to frank sinatra now..'when somebody loves u, it's no good unless they loves u..all the way"
Me: go with your gut feelings
Me: ah haha.
Me: you know, bren & i also have differing views abt ever lasting love.
Me: although we may feel like we are ever lasting, he is quite impartial.
Me: that day, i dreamt of quite an emotional dream
Me: i dreamt that singapore was at war and there was major chaos & unrest
Me: everyone had to evacuate and everyone ran under police's custody / protection
Me: i was with my dad and we were supposed to go back to the flat to meet my mom & sis and then evacuate together
Me: then we realised we were short of one paperwork which was needed to show the police to prove our citizenship
Me: i told my dad to go get the document and then meet us up at the flat. while i go get the people ready.. cos everyone was panicking.
Me: sorry my story is so long
Me: when i got to the flat,, there was my mom, sis, my sis' best friend and one young boy like 5 yrs old. (seemed like my son or something)
Me: the policewoman was at the door and she was taking attendance and asking us to quickly leave with her if we want protection.
Me: my mom got up to leave
Me: then i told her to SIT DOWN
Me: i said no one leaves
Me: i told the policewoman,, you leave. we are on our own. cos i am waiting for my dad to meet us here.
Friend: continue
Me: the police woman said ok, we're on our own. they will monitor and see if we managed to survive the war
Me: then i turned to my family and said, we must wait for my father cos we cannot change a plan half way through and leave the person stranded.
Me: i didnt ask for their opinion, i just took charge.
Me: so that was the end of the dream
Me: i was sharing my dream with brendan and he said i could have let my family go with the police first
Me: then the chances of safety is higher
Me: i said there is no point to survive if the family dont survive as a whole
Friend: u wanted to stick together
Me: what's the point of living when your family died
Friend: wah...
Me: i said as a family, you must strife together, like that make it or break it, you are together
Me: he kept quite, didnt argue or what but he was understanding me.
Me: this is what i will do in real life too
Me: so no matter how long you are with a person, you may be still learning about the person
Me: to quote albert enstien (sp) "the answers change"
Me: what you will do today in a given situation,, you may do it differently a couple of years later.
Me: while some things you wouldn't change.
Me: if a guy makes you tingle a little, heart beat faster a little, makes you wanna dress up a little,
Me: i say go for it.
Me: who cares what others have to say
Me: i dont
Me: find love
Me: we are here to explore it, get hurt by it, express it and most of all, to experience it.
Me: wow i can coin a quote now
Me: hahahahhaha
Friend: haha